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Update: I honestly don't know where this week has gone to. I'm still busy with work so there's that and it's really hard for me not to simply turn off after work. Some good stuff happening there. I've been doing my runs but today was my first miss, but due to unavoidable life stuff that didn't leave me with the time today. I knew this was going to happen today and my plan is to see how things go if I run Friday and Saturday. If I can do back to back runs that'll make it much easier to shuffle things around. i've been working from home all year so far but I need to head back to the office soon. Not sure if I am ready for it yet and I'm injury wary these days

And yet celery pales in comparison to the fiber content of raspberries You'd need 20 cups of celery to hit your recommended daily fiber intake and just 4 of raspberries. Actually drinking breakfast is something i've been thinking about. It's much easier for me to drink first thing in the morning than it is to eat. yeah I have a prescription for what I assume is the same kinda thing with a different name. The fiber supplement is honestly the only thing I've ever tried that has a tangible effect on my body.

Yeah, I've never had to deal with anything like it and it makes me feel like I've got a ticking bomb inside me. But yeah there are ways to mitigate the chance. That translate down to some dietary guidance. Plenty of water, unsurprisingly. And loads of fibre. Fibre just helps keep things clean. It's really hard to get fibre in your diet. Surprisingly hard. Stuff just doesn't contain much and the guidelines are around 3x what a typical diet would provide. Then there are really surprising things like the amount of fibre in raspberries. It's insane!

Hey Ghost Yeah, I know what it is these days. The TLDR is that my gut is full of holes. The less pleasant version is that I've got small pockets in my gut that formed after some damage (often just general wear and tear most people will form some). Whatever the cause these pockets are just prone to getting infected. Once that infection gains a foothold it's firmly entrenched and slowly takes over. So over a slow course of several months I'll feel worse and worse until finally my body's defences are overwhelmed and I fall off a cliff edge. This is, apparently, quite dangerous and can lead to sepsis. That is how I nearly ended up in hospital early this year. I was bedridden for close to three months.

Bit annoying isn't it? And me too. I pop awake.

Update: Well as I've already mentioned I've been having trouble sleeping. I'm having issues going down. I'm not sure why it's not run away thoughts or anything. Just a general restlessness when I try and sleep at night. And I've been waking up really early. That's the time of year lol. It was less of an issue when I'd plan to be up that early but I'm just getting up with the sunrise, Which at the moment in my part of the world is at around 4:45am No, blackout blinds don't make a difference. My body just knows... So yesterday I was really just exhausted. I did go for my run and it didn't go at all well. That's okay though, the challenge is all about consistency and not about how those workouts go. In fact it's my firm belief that no matter how good or how bad any single workout goes, it makes almost no difference. Consistency is key. My run was a little shorter and a lot slower. One thing I didn't have trouble with is food. I was just hungry and ate so much more than I normally would. I'm also good with that and okay with it. I feel like I needed a refeed but it's also not the kind of habit I want to get into. I'm really looking for a healthy balance. I ate less today but still more than I have been. Three meals. This is good. Feeling hungry like this is honestly not something I've had for years.

Thanks Shaar! I'm doing well, overall, ups and downs, you know, but overall things are good and getting better. Doesn't it just! I think it's just a reaction to the stress I'm under but it's good stress, if that makes sense.

Truth

Okay fair enough, I do know they didn't completely die out but there were so many back in the day. For myself, while I love creating stories, I found that it added a bit of pressure that I didn't always want to deal with. Especially 2018/2019 when my mental health took a really bad turn.

Well, the problem itself turned out to be extremely simple and perfectly obvious once I figured it out but it's not something I'd ever encountered before. It was just an arp table overflow on the dhcp server, but the symptoms were driving me crazy. I had appropriated a server to test on and that one was working just fine but the one my colleague was trying to work on just wouldn't work. Then I went around clearing up some weird traffic (which I suspect was caused by some strange interaction between lacp and ipmi that was causing a lot of L2 traffic to be sent to the vlan that I was looking at that shouldn't have been there at all) and it started working. Only to then run into the same problems about 30 minutes later. It was only once I realised that the dhcp server was seeing packet loss to itself that I got on the right track. It makes sense, there are many thousands of bits of tin that use it. I'd filtered out arp on my tcpdump, that probably didn't help. Problem took many hours to find. The solution, replace a number with a bigger number in a proc file. Thanks Lizz, I got pretty emotional while I was writing that. I do miss him a lot. Please dont' look to me for recipes! I'm so apathetic towards food right now that everything I'm making is extremely simple. So it was just burgers, but the meal was just amazing. Alas no, my sleep over this week has been atrocious. Although I slept better last night.

Hey Maggie, long time but following. This, is normal. There is only so much you can take before you just stop caring. That is just a normal human reaction. Don't beat yourself up over it. I can appreciate how draining it can be to deal with people who want a solution but aren't actually willing to do anything to work towards it that isn't someone just handing them the perfect solution. Worse if they get angry at you for it. Everyone has told you this but focus on what is the right thing for you to be doing to improve your own life. It's the only one where we have any semblance of real control anyway. These things exist because there are people who need it. Don't let the abuse that others do to the system prevent you from using the help that's available. Apply, if you qualify, take it. You don't need to feel bad about it and you don't need to justify it further. Good to see you Maggie

Please tell me I did not miss this! Either way, I'm here.

You too Ghost! It's taken me forever to get out of my own challenge. Yes! I agree, it would be awesome if they did come back.

Hey, better late than never I'm following along. It's good to see you are feeling better about things. I guess I missed your story pieces back in the day. I had my own at some point in time. I'm always a sucker for those.