Hey SOV!!!! Your trainer is amazing wow!    The difference in the way you write is wonderful to see btw. You seem to have more confidence in yourself, and you write with more reflection and time.    It is so great to read your challenge and to support you from afar.    Lots of love xx

Hey TG! YOU SOUND GREAT!!!!!   I wish i was brave enough to lecture. I couldnt do it. makes me go cold thinking about it!   How are your legs feeling today? xx

Hey Timo, how does your daughter feel about all of this?   Sending love to you her, and youuuuuuuu xx

Hey Rookie, sorry just seen your challenge!! How are you feeling today?    Hope you are doing well. Congrats on starting the new job!!!! xx

Hey Harriet, love to you! Glad you are putting boundaries in and taking care of your needs ❤️   You are amazing.    Have a safe trip back to Berlin, when you head home xx

Thank you!      Thanks, Ever!     They are. And it turns out my usual solitary routine has sort of camouflaged my extremely low threshold for exhaustion from socialising until now.     I agree, it's just my capacity for socialising is so shockingly low. Like a couple of hours a day is going to have me at my limits and kind of uncomfortable. I'm just so limited in every goddamned direction.     Yes, sauna is a great way to lose an hour or two. By the time you walk there, get changed, get in, sit out, get in, sit out, get changed, walk home, it's two hours anyway.      Not yet. It's still intriguingly secret, even from my nerds. Thank you!     Thanks for coming!     Hi Sov! I have lots of joint and muscle pain for some reason. The boys have been doing a couple of things without me here at the lake south of Munich while I rest but there's never enough rest. I just spent a couple of days reading but maybe I should get in a small workout, some painting, some secret plan practice. Thanks for asking!  I might not report in much the next few days until I get back to Berlin. 

It is a thing to practice. Definitely not something I find easy.   I have done it before with middling success. Hoping for better this time around. I'm glad it was helpful for you as well when you needed it.   ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 1&2. I think I'm going to use my computer to do the gratitude and general journalling. I have a feeling that if I get a physical object to write in, I will be "too tired" a lot of the time. Will do this after this post.   3. Meditation happened, less because I planned it than that it became necessary. It turns out that doing straight from reading two-sentence horror stories to doing a babytime is a big mental shift. I was already feeling not great from migraine hangover, so I took about ten minutes to sit, chill, and regroup before the parents and babies arrived. (Also, a funny moment: I have a baby doll that I use to model the actions for the songs during babytime. I sat it on the storytime carpet with the egg shakers and scarves, then left the room to go back to researching ghost stories and horror tales. Totally forgot that I had left it there, and scared myself when I returned and it was sitting there looking at me through the door.)   4. Took a nice walk. It's getting kind of chilly at night now, and I need a shawl. The path was nice and dark and calm.   5. I have mostly not wanted to talk to anyone for about a week now - just a bunch of stuff happened at once and I just shut down for a while. Today I texted back someone who I owed that to. We had a social thing planned for the weekend that was thankfully cancelled, so perhaps we can set up something else sometime soon.

Slept lousy last night (TUESDAY night🙂)  woke up hot and couldn't get back to sleep  forever. Then, I did get to sleep and woke up with a stiff neck. Stretched some and it felt a bit better. Had friends over for prayer. Then did my workout. First things was a dumbbell deadlift,and  I tweaked my back a bit. I did the rest of the workout very light, about 5 RPE, to not aggravate the neck or back.   It's Wednesday evening, and both feel a bit sore. Hoping tomorrow is better for that.9:   DId great with getting started this morning.Water - we shall see- I'm close. It's 8:00, and I have about 12 ounces to go.  8 of that in tea. I try to finish my  9:00, to limit bathroom pee time at night

😀 I guess I should say the actual day I'm talking about.

You’re her BAE, she’s not gonna let you doubt that!   I second this.