I still have yet to decide my 3rd task. I think I might put my laundry away because I was going to do that yesterday and didn't.    I'm feeling giddy that I might have found my dress but reality is that I don't think I would fit the highest size right now. I emailed the company to ask the measurements needed to fit it.   On another note, I decided to reach out to a girl whom I was pretty close to in elementary school but we drifted apart come highschool. It's been nice catching up. I don't expect much out of reconnecting but I'm glad to know she's doing well! And she said she always pictured me with lots of puppies ❤️ and I don't know why but that made me smile so much. I think because it means maybe she thought of me from time to time.    Anyways the night is still young so I might choose a mobility video to follow and hopefully get closer to my 30 minutes active time I'm aiming for.    Dog tax  

Brekky- 2 loaded coffees, 2 eggs, banana Lunch- Deli meat sandwich, dried fruit, chocolate milk Snack- Loaded coffee, 2 low cal yogurts, 1 whippet Supper- Soup and sandwiches Snack- Hot chocolate    Afternoon   Made a deli meat sandwich and chocolate milk for lunch. So good! I'm so happy I'm not having slim fast anymore.    Then my kid went on the treadmill for 12 mins. I love that he's showing an interest in fitness. He asks me if certain food is healthy. Tomorrow they are off school so I'll be working out in front of them.    Then I paced for a while to reach 15k steps.   ----------   I think I'm done pacing during the day. It's just so boring now. I'll still pace in the mornings, then dog walk and my treadmill, but that'll be it. To keep me occupied in my down time, I have a Christian book and a devotional book I'll read. I'm going to start reading the Bible again too.    I'm also getting back into true crime, I love watching them again.   ----------   Made tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches for supper. It was good.   Made the kids a fruit bowl for a snack then put them to bed. I watched my show and enjoyed a hot chocolate.     Hubs might not be home tomorrow, I miss him so much.

Saturday Report Deadlifts went well. My rubber flooring which was a reward from a previous challenge was finally delivered. It's a big step up from what I was using, and additional blocks will definitely be going on the reward list for future challenges. Class was fine. My professor tends to just ramble on, but there's lots of good stuff in there if you can follow the thread. Got lots of fence work done, interior line cleared and up. Also worked my horse, read a chapter of The Hobbit, and went pumpkin shopping.   Sunday Report Was chalice bearer today and then we had our annual meeting. I nipped out pretty quick after it wrapped up to go look at a horse. He was...fine. They haven't been doing much with him, I wasn't super impressed until they told me he hadn't been ridden in 5 weeks, and then I thought he really didn't do bad for sitting that long. His feet need a trim, but they weren't terribly long yet. His ground manners are terrible. but I can fix that, and he settled in pretty quick once I was in the saddle. So I remained very noncommittal, but I am thinking about making an offer on him. I don't usually do a lot of bartering for things, but they couldn't even be bothered to knock the mud off him before saddling him for me, so I don't mind lowballing them. Trying to make arrangements to go see a few more next weekend, if none of them are the one, I'll probably call this guy back up and make an offer.   Zero Week went pretty well, didn't do any barndominium work but got lots of fencing done, think I might make it a regular practice to take a break from the apartment for Zero Week and catch up on other farm chores that are suffering from my attention being on construction. I got Shape Water every day, only did the full Morning Prayer liturgy once, Light was hit or miss. Had plans to cook dinner tonight, but horse shopping meant I got home too late. I did not get my alarm clock moved, but I suspect I'll be up and at them early this week with the new job to get to, even without changing the set up.   Since the site might be down for maintenance tomorrow, going to go ahead and post the outline for Week One, although tomorrow is my first day in the new job, so I'm leaving myself the option of noping out of anything if I'm too fried by the end of the day.   Ordination - Just class work here for this week Strength - gym workout on Mon/Tues and home workouts on Thurs/Sat Barndominium - electric company is supposed to come stake the line this week, need to follow up with them tomorrow, if weather is nice I'll put the bottom rail for the deck up, otherwise I'll start clearing stuff inside to make room for interior walls.   Monday - workout at lunch, oiling my truck after work Tuesday - workout at lunch, dinner with my sister Wednesday - noon Eucharist, probably helping my neighbor, otherwise class reading and apartment work Thursday - class reading at lunch, workout in the evening, have the house to myself so just enjoying the quiet Friday - class reading at lunch, maybe Forbidden Lands in the evening Saturday - workout in the morning, then class, then hopefully horse shopping Sunday - church, then a free afternoon. Barn work, horse work, chill

I shall bedazzle them with my gem-encrusted mace!

17 - Journal   Another continuation, this time of 2 -Spiders from 2023 (read it here, contains some cussin'). This one references the Spiders one a couple of times, but it isn't strictly necessary to read it for this to make sense. This one also has some cussin', but not as much.    

Bike ride was SO GOOD  It was chilly when we started the drive, and lots of misty bits through the countryside, but the sun burned through the fog really fast and we had glorious blue sky & sunshine & spectacular fall colours. And so terrific getting to ride on an old rail trail, not along the shoulder of a highway! We went a little over 40 km all told (Waterford to Pt Dover). Felt great and we were just smiling like loons the whole time. I had the fact that I still needed to write up tomorrow’s lecture niggling at the back of my brain but managed to keep it pushed way back, mostly.   Got home, starving, had a big lunch, then remembered I had signed up for hot yoga this afternoon! So went to that (awesome), and afterwards was REALLY tempted to further push back lecture prep until after dinner, but I convinced myself to do just 15 minutes of it and see how I felt, and it totally worked… well it took much longer than 15 but got it done in time for a quick shower before dinner. So I’m feeling totally great about it now (would be singing the blues if I still had to do that all!)   Calories today are NOT GOOD but then I was way more active than usual. So.    

I hope you find comfort tonight

Whether directly covid-related or the various life changes that occurred incorrectly because of it, I'm noticing the loss of community as well.

This is what I've been discovering about myself over the last year. For me, I think the problem is that even though most things have gone back to normal (which makes it feel like I should be normal as well), a couple of my in-person communities either disappeared or are very different from what they used to be and I haven't found new communities that fill the holes yet.

They would kill each other. No survivors. This is a terrible fusion cuisine or ship portmanteau. 100% fatal.