[Shello]

I continue to look at this challenge as a struggle, even though the intent was to stray a little bit.  Weight has started to creep a little further than I wanted.  I did get motivated to start thinking about next challenge, and next year.  I'm not worried about this little hiccup because I know my path is right.  

 

I am struggling a little extra this week as a very good friend of mine passed away suddenly Monday evening.  I cried and grieved a lot that first night but I was mostly in shock.  Since then it's been busy or I'm at work and not able to really deal with it and I'm a master of   This friend has been around since before my kids were born and she was considered family and always called aunt Vicki by the kids.  So naturally Peach and I avoid talking about it at work because if one of us starts to get emotional, the other one follows.  I've been extra susceptible to snacks and sweets this week too.  Even though I recognized it's probably just the stress I literally just realized that I am using food as a coping mechanism rather than actually grieving and coping.   It's only been this week that the weight is creeping outside of maintenance range.   It's all making sense now.  I need to allow myself some time to just have a good cry or something.  

[Snarkyfishguts]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Sudden deaths feel extra unfair. I’m goad glad you’re giving yourself time and space to grieve

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[Shello]

17 hours ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

I’m so sorry for your loss. Sudden deaths feel extra unfair. I’m goad glad you’re giving yourself time and space to grieve

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[Shello]

I forgot to bring half of my lunch to work yesterday so I used it as an excuse to order a pizza from the cafeteria.  And then I ate a bunch of candy and snacks the rest of the afternoon.    In the evening though I put out some decorations on the front porch of the new house.  DDG had put together our new adirondack chairs so I put those out too.  It looks so lovely.  We are having a firepit festivity this weekend and having some people over so the porch is all decorated and ready to go.   Then I enjoyed a drink while I watched some trash TV in the bath!   It was glorious.  

[Laghail]

Sorry for your loss, that really sucks. You get to decide how you grieve but honesty, if carbs make you feel some temporary comfort, it might not be the worst thing to give yourself a time range to ignore the scale and have a snack when you feel sad. There's a reason we as a species tend to eat and drink as part of funerals.

 

Also drinking and trash tv in the bath? I have no notes. This is perfect. 

[Shello]

On 10/11/2024 at 9:48 AM, Laghail said:

Also drinking and trash tv in the bath? I have no notes. This is perfect.

This was DDGs idea and it was absolutely brilliant!  

[Shello]

We had some family over Saturday and all sat by the firepit outside.  I set a campfire charcuterie table with chili,, corn bread, hot dogs to cook over the fire, various chips for the chili, smore fixings, homemade caramel corn, rice Krispy treats and brownies.   It was a lot of fun but many of those snacks are weaknesses so I've been snacking on caramel corn and rice krispy treats since Friday night and we have tons of hot dogs leftover that we'll be eating throughout the week.  

 

Not necessarily using food as a coping mechanism but things habits are derailing into chaos.   This challenge went from maintaining weigh and habits but chill, to very unchill stuffing my face and gaining.   It's definitely time to end this challenge and start anew.  I need to kick the sweets habit again (Ugh and right before Halloween!) and get back to some fitness.  While we wait for the new forums to be up, I plan to use week 0 to ween myself off of the bad habits and start poking at the good ones.  

[Snarkyfishguts]

2 hours ago, Shello said:

We had some family over Saturday and all sat by the firepit outside.  I set a campfire charcuterie table with chili,, corn bread, hot dogs to cook over the fire, various chips for the chili, smore fixings, homemade caramel corn, rice Krispy treats and brownies.   It was a lot of fun but many of those snacks are weaknesses so I've been snacking on caramel corn and rice krispy treats since Friday night and we have tons of hot dogs leftover that we'll be eating throughout the week.  

 

This sounds super cozy.. I think my family is doing something similar soon! It’s a good time of year for it. 

 

2 hours ago, Shello said:

Not necessarily using food as a coping mechanism but things habits are derailing into chaos.   This challenge went from maintaining weigh and habits but chill, to very unchill stuffing my face and gaining.   It's definitely time to end this challenge and start anew.  I need to kick the sweets habit again (Ugh and right before Halloween!) and get back to some fitness.  While we wait for the new forums to be up, I plan to use week 0 to ween myself off of the bad habits and start poking at the good ones.  

I threw out my diet after my aunt died, and am ready to get back to it again. I think there’s a deep survival mechanism in us that encourages eating through grief. I’m kicking sweets to the curb too! We’ll get fresh starts together.

[Shello]

9 minutes ago, Snarkyfishguts said:

We’ll get fresh starts together.

[Shello]

The weaning process is going well.  We've gone out for a short walk the last two nights.  There's still plenty of treats to finish off but I've been partaking a bit less. keep in mind the bar is set very very low so I am still eating plenty of treats.  Yesterday afternoon I was trying to just stay away from sweets.  It was a struggle and I ended up eating plenty of other snacks to avoid sweets.  I still ended up having a few sweets.  

 

Today is boss's day and my team planned a surprise food day with donuts and the town's best breakfast pizza, among a variety of other treats.  How does one decide between donuts and breakfast pizza?  They don't.   

[Snarkyfishguts]

1 minute ago, Shello said:

The weaning process is going well.  We've gone out for a short walk the last two nights.  There's still plenty of treats to finish off but I've been partaking a bit less. keep in mind the bar is set very very low so I am still eating plenty of treats.  Yesterday afternoon I was trying to just stay away from sweets.  It was a struggle and I ended up eating plenty of other snacks to avoid sweets.  I still ended up having a few sweets.  

Still sounds like you're making a lot of progress here! 

 

1 minute ago, Shello said:

Today is boss's day and my team planned a surprise food day with donuts and the town's best breakfast pizza, among a variety of other treats.  How does one decide between donuts and breakfast pizza?  They don't.   

I mean, they did bring them for you...  You don't want to seem ungrateful. ?

[Shello]

Just now, Snarkyfishguts said:

I mean, they did bring them for you...  You don't want to seem ungrateful. ?

Exactly!  the sacrifices I make for my team!