Wow you did LOADS!!!!!!!   how's your weekend going? X

Hey Sov.   Sorry you are feeling low   Do you think you need more rest? A new hobby? More social time? Less social time?   Maybe writing down thoughts could help discover how you can move through the sadness?   Love you lots x

In the US at least, you now have to pay an extra fee to be without commercials. Mildly annoying, and also kind of amusing. Amusing because when cable first was a thing, it was fee (vs, free TV) but the thing was they didn't have commercials, and it was fairly cheap. Then the prices rose, And then they added commercials. And then we started the switch to streaming, which was cheaper. And now we have all those separate streams, and they are adding commercials and /or increasing the price. I guess the moral of the story is that producing your own shows is very expensive, and requires more a steady revenue coming in.   Good for you for keeping up with the dishes and other stuff even when you don't have all the mojo energy! Sometimes it's just about treading water for a bit. Hoping you have more energy soon. Do you get affected by the weather? I know the shorter days and less sun means less energy for me.

Finger nails   Painting started and reference  

Our bodies change. Maybe you need less acidity. Try adding a 1/4 teaspoon of baking soda to your pot of coffee with the coffee grounds. The baking soda will make it less acidic as it brews and less aggravating to your stomach. It could also be that wou are having too much acid at once. If I add tomato to my morning meal after enjoying a cup of coffee, my stomach can disagree a little. 

Something I don't understand: I'm drinking 1 coffee per day and yet, I have the burning inside feeling in my stomach that I have when I drink 10 of them. I'm not eating particularly spicy either. Can't put my finger on what may cause that.       5 days   Wednesday Thursday Friday       10/02 10/03 10/04               Success%       100% 100% 100%               Workout         Yes   Running       Yes   Yes Grooming       Yes Yes Yes Meditation       Yes Yes Yes Sleeping       Yes Yes Yes

There was a whole patch of them. They're whats left of the gorse when it gets burnt in a heath fire. definetly look very etherial. Definetly going to have a go at sketching them when i have more energy.    Probubly had iron on me somewhere, we’re good 😆   Ribbon laces are so good. Over the moon with them ❤️

For yesterday:   1. & 2. Yes.   3. I am going to count jum'a today. The khutba was in Arabic but not very long, so I just let the words flow over me and tried to relax into the feeling.   4. I got two walks in!   5. I got back to several people today as well, and now have a meetup with one on Wednesday.   The jum'a was smaller than I expected, perhaps a dozen people. It went about as well as I could have hoped for. I only had to tell people I wasn't married three times, and was asked where I was really from in the most respectful and non-offensive way I have ever heard. There are a few other women who are roughly the same age as me, so perhaps I will click with someone in the fullness of time.   Also had a really good conversation with my son that is a good reminder for myself too. He's been working on building his own community since he's in college and at the start of his own independence. He's been attending a mosque youth group and a church youth group (he likes the open spirituality, doesn't care about the doctrine), and he's at the point where he wants to drop the mosque one. He feels like he stands out too much, yet isn't wanted as himself. He cannot openly talk about his opinions or the way he lives without judgment. If he is wanted, it's as a trophy, the token white. He'll always be an outsider. And I know from personal experience that at eighteen in such groups too, you start to get people trying to hook you up and police you, so the judgment is extra strong. And it's hard for me to make a case for keeping it up when I felt the same at his age. (I was scared away from a mosque at eighteen after only two visits by people trying to marry me off to their relatives.) And I feel many of the same things too. But I think the thing to pull from that experience, and which I can pull from my own experience, is the perspective that it gives you on the struggles of others. Because this must be exactly how many black and brown people going to events where they know they will be the only one. Or how a new immigrant whose English isn't very good feels trying to meet people in their community. It's why expats and immigrants tend to stick so hard to their own when they have the chance - it's really hard to break out of that bubble. So I think it's good to know that feeling.

Week 4 Friday Bonus gym cardio workout (+10 xp) gives me another ranged attack against the turkey which also misses (7 to hit). This is a little ridiculous. Oh well. Also did some bouldering (+3 xp) and finished one new V3 (+2 xp). I got pretty close on another one, so maybe next week I'll get it. Chopped some more blackberries, but again, no feathers for arrow making. Did candles and teeth, so that's another short rest.   Turkey: 3 hp Short Rests: 22 Week 4: 45 xp

I like this a lot. I'm always amazed at how a few simple lines can express so much character. This was definitely me as a child, clomping around in rubber boots to play in puddles and ponds.