I muppet flail my limbs around a lot and do several step ball changes and box steps. Sometimes shuffles and kicks. A lot of jazz hands and again, muppet flailing. I don’t dance woth intention, but just kinda move like a kid and pretend I am a magical princess with a unicorn best friend, much like I did when I was 8 years old. So no one will ever see me dance and think “ wow!” But maybe like .” Wow..okay ….”     😂  

OK, looking at that list and it will be SCANDALOUS if i don’t do even one set of physio today. Going to get on that now.

It's pretty wild! I've only watched recordings of the Critical Role live shows, but if/when I get caught up, I'd love to see one in person. It always looks like there's such a crazy energy and I'd like to experience that at least once. I'm glad you had a good time!   He's amazing!

Good questions.   I got back late Monday night from four days in the Los Angeles area. The trip was good, more on that later.   I have been dealing with anxiety. More in general than specific.   One sign was when I was looking for a fiber arts project to take for the trip. I am at the final sewing-on-the-edging step of my scarf knitting project, so it stayed at home. I set up the yarn, needles and pattern to start a pair of socks. It looked like fun, but I was not enthusiastic about it. I had a surprisingly strong positive feeling when I found the crocheted cactus project from last fall. I finished three of the four cacti last year. The last one has a bunch of leaves. I got bored making the same large leaf six times in a row and set it down. Apparently my brain is really on about finishing things that have been on hold. I got all the leaves and most of the base of the cactus done on the trip.   I also finished reading The Yoga Sutra of Patanjali. This was recommended to me by one of the senior people at the dojo. It is a guide to meditation. The commentary at the end had a fascinating comparison of this text and early Buddhist teaching, which date to about 600 years earlier. They are quite similar. Some of the instructions in the Yoga Sutra make more sense to me than what I was taught by my Zen teacher. They are both saying essentially the same thing, I just had a "oh, that's what you meant!" moment. After renewing the book twice, I returned it to the library.   I had Tuesday scheduled off so that I would have a day to recover and do normal stuff after the trip. This was a smart move, since our flight got in at 11pm. I had two important things on my list: get tax info together for our accountant and put black plastic down over the weeds in the side garden.   What really happened was that I stayed in yoga clothes until the afternoon and did not do yoga or take a shower. I did a bunch of second choice things as I avoided what I was supposed to do. I got the kitchen sink scrubbed, the laundry done and cleaned the floors upstairs. All of these things certainly needed to be done, but not that day. At the end of the day I managed to open up the financial files and start making a list of the information I need to track down. I got as far as figuring out that I am missing the mortgage statement from January with the total of interest from last year.  I found the checklist from last year, but not the one from this year. I barely made it to bed on time, in spite of having the day off.   Yesterday I intended to go to aikido. Instead, I let myself get distracted with Facebook until it was too late to make it to class. I went to the library and the co-op right after I got home. Then I really did work on the accounting info. I downloaded a bunch of statements and found the checklist from the accountant. I am pretty sure I have most of what she needs. Tonight will be devoted to getting the rest of it together. Dumbledore is also on notice to get his business figures together for her. That is not my problem.    I am hoping that once I get the major things off my conscience, my brain will start working again. There are fun projects I would like to do. My brain won't let me be happy about doing them while it is worried about other things. I have been pretty good about sitting zen and squeaking by on getting enough sleep. Logging is lagging as my anxiety flares up. I think I don't want to admit that I am not doing what I said I wanted to do.  

Ugh. Went to get the farm share, and I was feeling dizzy and broke into a sweat before I got out of the building. Okay, Universe, maybe this crankiness and insomnia thing is me still being sick.   I had a lunchtime meeting with a new writing student, and then felt wiped out. I ended up napping for about an hour before the call with Georgia, which went well.   I feel pretty lousy, even just sitting around doing nothing, so I begged off the band booster meeting for tonight and I’m going to take a pill and go to sleep.  Maybe I’ll feel better by tomorrow and can make it to the game.

Taking a DMing break sounds wise. It's easy to feel like it is your responsibility to keep the table going, but it really isn't and I'm glad your players are being cool about it.   I've also been eyeing up some other systems. So many games, so little time!

Tuesday - W2D2 Tuesday's adventure was a trip into London, to see the High Rollers live show   First thing was Crossfit - a longass EMOM of heavy thrusters and legless rope climbs (arms only, not drunk... unfortunately).   Did some painting in the morning, but didn't manage to quite finish my mini. Got in well over the 15 minutes needed for the West Marches side quest though.   Then up to London, where I spent an absolute ton of money on food and drink before and at the High Rollers show. Calories were tracked at 5,263 The show itself was amazing - so bizarre to see hundreds (maybe thousands?) of people turning up to watch some nerds play D&D. Great night.   Got home about half midnight and crashed straight into bed. Apart from the spending money, a successful day for goals too.   Wednesday W2D3 Wednesday's adventure was a nice walk at a national park, followed by a day chilling on the sofa with beige food. It was nice an relaxing.   No money spend (we did stop for beige food, but that's groceries, not part of the goal), updated here, and even finished my wizard mini:              

It never does get normal.    Things are still progressing well. I'm still keeping on top of daily meditation, which is the cornerstone of all this. It's really about overall wellness, rather than peak performance. To that end, I'm still staying active each day. Some days that only means a walk, but most days it means more.

I didn't manage to add any gems today. I read the applications and went for a walk. My chest hurts a fair bit, and my neck feels like it is being squeezed. I am reasonably sure it's inflammation of the cartilage between the ribs and the sternum and not a heart problem. But it's a little difficult not to be nervous about it. I feel uncertain about how to proceed with the exercise. How can I be so frail??? Why do I always get sick or injured and have to take time off so I never make progress? What can I actually do that will work? 

What do you do when you dance for fun? I've thought it might be fun to do, but I'm not quite sure how. I haven't done much dancing since I stopped ballet after middle school. Except line dancing at some weddings. That's loads of fun, but it kind of requires a bunch of people and more space than I have in my house.