The Ox King Posted December 4, 2016 Report Share Posted December 4, 2016 A little mini win. I went and looked at my profile on Facebook and noticed. I seem like a pretty happy guy. I know I get wrapped up in my head at times, but I think that I am a happy (and very lucky) guy. For those who don't know, I used to fight depression seriously. I was hanging on by a thread. I was probably a few months from suicide. Uniquely, that's what saved me. One day, I wanted to see if I had the capability to do it. My method was to drive off the road into a tree. I didn't care about pain, but I didn't want my family to know about my struggle, so I wanted it to end in an accident. A "randomly" occurring accident. So, I drove slightly off the road towards a tree, and got scared, because I realized "I can do it." I immediately saw a shift in my mindset. There was no longer a simple "well, I physically can't do it", but now a "I can do it, if I wanted." This freaked me out so bad. I overcame my fear and anxiety and called the counseling center, or maybe I emailed or just went there. I can't remember, but I set up an appointment, and started my recovery. That will be three years ago in January. I am so, so happy with my recovery, and I'm so glad that I've had all these new experiences since then. But, if it weren't for the depression, I wouldn't know that I needed to fix the rest of my emotional bases. The happiness and love I've felt in the past year... hell, the past month! It's amazing. And I love all you. 6 Quote https://www.nerdfitness.com/character/89458 Link to comment
WolfDreamer Posted December 5, 2016 Report Share Posted December 5, 2016 That's awesome, man. I appreciate your candid heart in sharing this with us. It takes guts to admit something like this, and even more guts to see through the clouds and know that deep down you are a happy and lucky guy. Keep it up. Feel free to message me any time. 1 Quote Who am I? -- My NF Character Current Challenge: WolfDreamer Enters Spartan Training Past Challenges: Spoiler Winter is Coming, Wolfen Strengthens His Heart, Body, Mind, and Spirit, Wolfen Becomes One of the People, Wolfen Strengthens His Chakras, Wolfen Welcomes Summer and Gets Primal, Soulcon and Spartan, Wolfen Develops Mental Toughness, Wolfen Joins the Wander Society, Soulcon, Spartan, School, and Stranger Things, Wolfen Becomes a Warrior Elite, Wolfen Goes Here and There and Back Again, Wolfen Becomes a Soulcon Warrior Elite, Wolfen Returns to His Roots, Wolfen Wanders in Soul, Spirit, and Body, Wolfen Owns the Day, Wolfen Searches for His Wild Heart, Wolfen Runs for His Life, Wolfen Hits the Trails, Wolfen Becomes an Explorer and Joins the Resistance, Wolfen Goes Back to the Source, Wolfen Begins the Hero's Journey, WolfDreamer Returns to the People, WolfDreamer Pushes Back, WolfDreamer Prioritizes, Burpees, Books, and Brainwork, Burpees, Books, Brainwork, and Bodywork, WolfDreamer Masters the Four Elements, WolfDreamer Continues to Master the Four Elements, WolfDreamer Returns to Sparta, WolfDreamer Returns to Middle Earth, WolfDreamer Continues His Middle Earth Adventure, WolfDreamer and the Fall, WolfDreamer Forges His Own Path, WolfDreamer Has Hope, WolfDreamer Returns to Middle Earth, WolfDreamer Reads Harder, Breathes Harder, and Journals More, WolfDreamer Embraces His Wild Poet, The Mad Poet Becomes Supernatural, WolfDreamer, The Mad Poet, Becomes Superhuman, WolfDreamer Elevates, WolfDreamer Becomes IronBorn, WolfDreamer Wakes the White Wolf, The Mad Poet Recovers by Keeping it Simple, WolfDreamer Clears His Mind to Find His Wild Heart, WolfDreamer Resets, WolfDreamer Strives to Become an Eminently Qualified Peaceful Warrior, WolfDreamer Springs Forward, WolfDreamer Returns (For Real This Time), WolfDreamer is RespaWinning, WolfDreamer Reboots, WolfDreamer Thinks About the Roman Empire “I'd rather sing one wild song and burst my heart with it, than live a thousand years watching my digestion and being afraid of the wet.” -- Jack London “I wanted movement and not a calm course of existence. I wanted excitement and danger and the chance to sacrifice myself for my love.” -- Leo Tolstoy "I feel love rising in my chest again Rising like a burning sun into the day..." -- Gungor, "Hurricane" "...wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom." 2 Corinthians 3:17b Link to comment
imprimis5 Posted December 6, 2016 Report Share Posted December 6, 2016 Well done, my friend. Well done. 1 Quote Rangers, ho! My Character and Epic Quest My current Challenge Previous Challenges: 0, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 Link to comment
Lydiechan Posted January 30, 2017 Report Share Posted January 30, 2017 I love it. When you win at something, it's really hard to keep from smiling. Keep it up! 1 Quote (Already!?) Level 3 Ranger / Epic Declutterer / Prolific Writer https://www.nerdfitness.com/character/163280 "Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change." - Jim Rohn Link to comment
DyDy Posted January 30, 2017 Report Share Posted January 30, 2017 That's not a mini-win, that is a BIG one! I have struggled with depression two and it sucks. Like dementors it suck all the joy from your life. You are doing wonderful! Therapy can be hard, but it will help you so much. 1 Quote Epic Quest Character | Battle Log Challenges: #1 Link to comment
The Ox King Posted February 1, 2017 Author Report Share Posted February 1, 2017 On 12/4/2016 at 10:10 PM, Wolfen said: That's awesome, man. I appreciate your candid heart in sharing this with us. It takes guts to admit something like this, and even more guts to see through the clouds and know that deep down you are a happy and lucky guy. Keep it up. Feel free to message me any time. I've always been both shy and had a big mouth, so being candid is often easy for me. Once I start, it's hard to stop. 1 Quote https://www.nerdfitness.com/character/89458 Link to comment
WolfDreamer Posted February 1, 2017 Report Share Posted February 1, 2017 1 hour ago, The Ox King said: I've always been both shy and had a big mouth, so being candid is often easy for me. Once I start, it's hard to stop. Right on. I'm both insecure AND full of myself, so I get it. We are all a beautiful mess of contradictions and dichotomies. Quote Who am I? -- My NF Character Current Challenge: WolfDreamer Enters Spartan Training Past Challenges: Spoiler Winter is Coming, Wolfen Strengthens His Heart, Body, Mind, and Spirit, Wolfen Becomes One of the People, Wolfen Strengthens His Chakras, Wolfen Welcomes Summer and Gets Primal, Soulcon and Spartan, Wolfen Develops Mental Toughness, Wolfen Joins the Wander Society, Soulcon, Spartan, School, and Stranger Things, Wolfen Becomes a Warrior Elite, Wolfen Goes Here and There and Back Again, Wolfen Becomes a Soulcon Warrior Elite, Wolfen Returns to His Roots, Wolfen Wanders in Soul, Spirit, and Body, Wolfen Owns the Day, Wolfen Searches for His Wild Heart, Wolfen Runs for His Life, Wolfen Hits the Trails, Wolfen Becomes an Explorer and Joins the Resistance, Wolfen Goes Back to the Source, Wolfen Begins the Hero's Journey, WolfDreamer Returns to the People, WolfDreamer Pushes Back, WolfDreamer Prioritizes, Burpees, Books, and Brainwork, Burpees, Books, Brainwork, and Bodywork, WolfDreamer Masters the Four Elements, WolfDreamer Continues to Master the Four Elements, WolfDreamer Returns to Sparta, WolfDreamer Returns to Middle Earth, WolfDreamer Continues His Middle Earth Adventure, WolfDreamer and the Fall, WolfDreamer Forges His Own Path, WolfDreamer Has Hope, WolfDreamer Returns to Middle Earth, WolfDreamer Reads Harder, Breathes Harder, and Journals More, WolfDreamer Embraces His Wild Poet, The Mad Poet Becomes Supernatural, WolfDreamer, The Mad Poet, Becomes Superhuman, WolfDreamer Elevates, WolfDreamer Becomes IronBorn, WolfDreamer Wakes the White Wolf, The Mad Poet Recovers by Keeping it Simple, WolfDreamer Clears His Mind to Find His Wild Heart, WolfDreamer Resets, WolfDreamer Strives to Become an Eminently Qualified Peaceful Warrior, WolfDreamer Springs Forward, WolfDreamer Returns (For Real This Time), WolfDreamer is RespaWinning, WolfDreamer Reboots, WolfDreamer Thinks About the Roman Empire “I'd rather sing one wild song and burst my heart with it, than live a thousand years watching my digestion and being afraid of the wet.” -- Jack London “I wanted movement and not a calm course of existence. I wanted excitement and danger and the chance to sacrifice myself for my love.” -- Leo Tolstoy "I feel love rising in my chest again Rising like a burning sun into the day..." -- Gungor, "Hurricane" "...wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom." 2 Corinthians 3:17b Link to comment
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