NeverThatBored Posted February 20, 2018 Report Share Posted February 20, 2018 11 hours ago, Owlet said: Unrelated to pretty much everything, but just gonna leave you this heart-warming gem from NZ: https://www.stuff.co.nz/oddstuff/101232244/thomas-the-blind-bisexual-goose-to-be-buried-next-to-partner-henry-the-swan That article was an emotional rollercoaster. 3 Quote Gargoyle Ranger | Level 49 2022 challenges: 49 (current) 2015-2021 challenges: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 |15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 || 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 32 | 33 || 34 | 35 | 36 | 37 | 38 | 39 | 40 | 41 | 42 || 43 | 44 | 45 | | 46 | 47 | 48 || My epic quest | MEATBALL WARS You don't get better at anything unless you start doing it. Being alive is heckn swell. Link to comment
Severine Posted February 21, 2018 Report Share Posted February 21, 2018 14 hours ago, NeverThatBored said: That article was an emotional rollercoaster. You're not kidding! Wow. 3 Quote Fitbit | Current Challenge | Old Challenges: 1 ~ 2 ~ 3 ~ 4 ~ 5 ~ 6 ~ 7 ~ 8 ~ 9 ~ 10 ~ 11 ~ 12 ~ 13 ~ 14 ~ 15 ~ 16 ~ 17 ~ 18 ~ 19 ~ 20 ~ 21 ~ 22 Forum avatar is custom art by the talented Veronica Guzzardi. Link to comment
Owlet Posted February 21, 2018 Report Share Posted February 21, 2018 We also had a gannet who fell in love with the concrete gannets they positioned to try and attract more gannets (to start a colony) Dear old Nigel. 5 Quote Current Challenge Link to comment
Wobbegong Posted March 1, 2018 Report Share Posted March 1, 2018 I just barely missed it due to time zone issues but where I'm at I think it's still your birthday?! Happy birthday!!! <3 <3 4 Quote Link to comment
Owlet Posted March 2, 2018 Report Share Posted March 2, 2018 Birthday?! Well then, a cat for you: 2 Quote Current Challenge Link to comment
Owlet Posted March 15, 2018 Report Share Posted March 15, 2018 Nerd Fitness isn't the same without Flea. Hope you're ok xx 8 Quote Current Challenge Link to comment
Sylvaa Posted March 15, 2018 Report Share Posted March 15, 2018 9 hours ago, Owlet said: Nerd Fitness isn't the same without Flea. Hope you're ok xx She is good! I've talked to her! 7 4 Quote Sylvaa's BattleLog Sylvaa's Tracking Spreadsheet Link to comment
Countess D'If Posted May 3, 2018 Report Share Posted May 3, 2018 I DEMAND AN UPDATE! Please 7 Quote My Blog | To-Read | @i_ate_the_bar | fitbit Link to comment
fleaball Posted May 5, 2018 Author Report Share Posted May 5, 2018 On 3/14/2018 at 10:51 PM, Owlet said: Nerd Fitness isn't the same without Flea. Hope you're ok xx On 5/2/2018 at 10:46 PM, Countess D'If said: I DEMAND AN UPDATE! Please Still alive. Not much to update. I spent 7 years thinking that if I could just get over my anxiety, I'd be fine. That's a lie. The therapist I've been seeing for 3 months is still trying to determine whether I have depression, PTSD, or both, but is 100% sure the anxiety is the least of my problems. Job hunt is going exactly nowhere and I'm not driving as much as I should be. Switched to a new PT for persistent knee bullshit that keeps me from driving for long periods of time. It's going okay except for the fact that my entire leg is so fucked up that he's uncovering a new problem every time I go. Still low-key hoping my house burns down (with or without people in it) (and that the cats would be smart enough to get out and just hang out across the street or something). I'm stuck on a carousel of suck and I have no desire to be involved here right now. I'm not in a place where challenges would help and there's nothing worth tracking in this thread. I care about people here but have exactly zero spoons to spare for checking in on anyone and being active in any other threads. Tbh I've turned off notifications and only saw these responses because I was looking through the thread to double-check something for therapy purposes. So thanks for checking in. I'm gonna go back to hiding under blankets now. 12 Quote Level 69 Battle Kitten Battle Log | Current Challenge MyFitnessPal | Fitbit | Duolingo Ici je vis la vie que j'ai choisie Je suis partie pour reconstruire ma vie C'est dit, c'est ainsi Link to comment
Sloth the Enduring Posted May 5, 2018 Report Share Posted May 5, 2018 I’m glad you’re still alive. 5 Quote “We might as well start where we are, use what we have and do what we can." – Caitlin Rivers Sloth: The Man with the Hammer battle log Link to comment
Countess D'If Posted May 5, 2018 Report Share Posted May 5, 2018 I'm glad you're still alive, too. I'm sorry you're stuck in a carousel of suck. That's shitty and I hope you get off it, soon. We super miss you, but no pressure to hang out here if you don't want to. 4 Quote My Blog | To-Read | @i_ate_the_bar | fitbit Link to comment
Tanktimus the Encourager Posted May 6, 2018 Report Share Posted May 6, 2018 Sounds like you have a good therapist. 3 Quote Current Challenge "By the Most-Righteous-and-Blessed Beard of Sir Tanktimus the Encourager!" - Jarl Rurik Harrgath Link to comment
Owlet Posted May 6, 2018 Report Share Posted May 6, 2018 Flea! Thanks for the update I don't know how you do it but somehow you always make me laugh even though you are saying the most depressing things and then I feel a little bit guilty but still amused... it's confusing. Anyway, thanks for dropping in and good on you for recognising nerd fitness isn't what you need right now. If you ever get the desire to launch a (dark) comedy podcast let me know and I'll tune in from the other side of The Void. 3 Quote Current Challenge Link to comment
WhiteGhost Posted May 11, 2018 Report Share Posted May 11, 2018 Flea Sighting! 2 3 Quote HUNTER OF ALL THINGS SHINY Intro Thread Challenge Log Bodyweight Exercise Library Recipe Book Shuffle Club Level 2 Ninja Strength: 13 Intelligence: 14 Wisdom: 6 Dexterity:14 Constitution: 12 Charisma: 11 Link to comment
Annabelle Posted May 23, 2018 Report Share Posted May 23, 2018 ♥ Rooting for you darlin! 2 Quote "Even if you don't make it all the way, those last 10 seconds of trying and not getting anywhere - that's where you gain the most strength." - Jessie Graff Meet Me (old) | Twitter | Current Challenge | Mindset Module Diary Link to comment
Rookie Posted May 23, 2018 Report Share Posted May 23, 2018 Fleaaa <3 I logged in for the first time in forever and whose thread did I see? Yours! <3 We are cheering for you 2 Quote {Chase the wind and touch the sky; I will fly} Link to comment
fleaball Posted June 25, 2018 Author Report Share Posted June 25, 2018 My hand slipped. On 5/5/2018 at 1:23 AM, Sloth the Enduring said: I’m glad you’re still alive. On 5/5/2018 at 3:18 PM, Countess D'If said: I'm glad you're still alive, too. I'm sorry you're stuck in a carousel of suck. That's shitty and I hope you get off it, soon. We super miss you, but no pressure to hang out here if you don't want to. On 5/11/2018 at 1:21 AM, WhiteGhost said: Flea Sighting! On 5/23/2018 at 12:18 PM, Annabelle said: ♥ Rooting for you darlin! On 5/23/2018 at 1:25 PM, Rookie said: Fleaaa <3 I logged in for the first time in forever and whose thread did I see? Yours! <3 We are cheering for you Thanks y'all! <3 On 5/6/2018 at 5:29 PM, Tanktimus the Encourager said: Sounds like you have a good therapist. I do! She knows her shit and also won't let me get away with anything. Which is great but also frustrating as hell. On 5/6/2018 at 5:58 PM, Owlet said: Flea! Thanks for the update I don't know how you do it but somehow you always make me laugh even though you are saying the most depressing things and then I feel a little bit guilty but still amused... it's confusing. Anyway, thanks for dropping in and good on you for recognising nerd fitness isn't what you need right now. If you ever get the desire to launch a (dark) comedy podcast let me know and I'll tune in from the other side of The Void. Don't feel guilty! Making people laugh makes me feel better. I should probably not be so flippant about things, but meh I have bigger issues to work on first. Feel free to laugh at everything! Or nothing. I won't tell you what to do. 8 Quote Level 69 Battle Kitten Battle Log | Current Challenge MyFitnessPal | Fitbit | Duolingo Ici je vis la vie que j'ai choisie Je suis partie pour reconstruire ma vie C'est dit, c'est ainsi Link to comment
fleaball Posted August 11, 2018 Author Report Share Posted August 11, 2018 Here's a fun fucking story. Remember last year when my brother went apeshit on me the night my mother died and I was surprised I didn't get punched in the face? Apparently my father was convinced he was going to kill me. My brother and I were just talking about how my father rarely even addresses him. He'll ask me to text my brother and ask him to pick something up from the store, or "the next time you talk to him can you tell him x." They don't really see each other because of the way their work schedules are set up, but phones still exist. My father also won't ask my brother to empty the trash (the ONE chore he's ever had), he'll just let it pile up and get rancid and then complain that my brother hasn't done it. My brother was like "is he really that afraid of me that he won't talk to me?" I said "well, you did freak him out last year." And he's like "I know, there was sheer terror in his eyes. He thought I was going to kill you. He asked me a bunch of times and I had to convince him that I wasn't going to." This is my brother saying it, so of course I'm taking it with a pound of salt. But at the same time it just pisses me off so much more now that my father even asked that. Because when I was asking him if there was anything we needed to do and to make sure the guns were not within reach and all that, he just kept dismissing me. When I mentioned calling my brother's psychiatrist, because my brother had told me weeks before not to be surprised if he went bonkers when she died because adderall causes some kind of psychosis or whatever (??), he was like "noooo, I think you should maybe just avoid him for a while" and he was pissed when I did it anyway. The night of, he even told me there was nothing we could to until/unless my brother actually became violent. I fucking cannot believe it. Even though they can't stand each other, my brother is still the favorite child who gets away with everything and has zero responsibilities. I am second place to an ungrateful manchild who spends all his money on weed and video games. 7 Quote Level 69 Battle Kitten Battle Log | Current Challenge MyFitnessPal | Fitbit | Duolingo Ici je vis la vie que j'ai choisie Je suis partie pour reconstruire ma vie C'est dit, c'est ainsi Link to comment
Bean Sidhe Posted August 12, 2018 Report Share Posted August 12, 2018 *hugs* I got no words, but *hugs* 2 Quote You are never too old to set another goal or dream a new dream - C.S. Lewis Link to comment
fleaball Posted September 19, 2018 Author Report Share Posted September 19, 2018 Not doing a challenge this round. I'm still in a weird headspace where I want the structure of the challenge but not the pressure of actually having to work toward the goals. Like, goals are good but I don't need my brain telling me "you missed a day and you're a horrible person and this one instance of not eating a vegetable negates everything you've ever accomplished in life!" So I've been telling myself for days that I'm just going to post in my battle log every few days so I'm not continuing to isolate myself from cool people... and I haven't been doing that, obviously. But I was just telling @Severine about said plan and decided that ugh, now's as good a time as any, right? So here I am. Gonna try to work on healthy habits behind the scenes but not declare any of them so I can't fail. Which is great, because it's Shark Week so I'm even more inclined to hide in bed and stuff my face with things that are terrible for me. Womp. (Fun fact: I knew it was coming today because pills, but despite that I still not only forgot it was coming today but also forgot it was a thing in general. Like actually panicked and thought "jesus christ is that BLOOD?! why is there blood?!" and then had to take a second and remind myself that this has been a thing for the past 18 years. ) That's all I got right now. Expect more random babbling in the future, I guess. 6 Quote Level 69 Battle Kitten Battle Log | Current Challenge MyFitnessPal | Fitbit | Duolingo Ici je vis la vie que j'ai choisie Je suis partie pour reconstruire ma vie C'est dit, c'est ainsi Link to comment
Severine Posted September 19, 2018 Report Share Posted September 19, 2018 Yessss you posted! Win! I am pleased to have been involved in making good things happen. As I mentioned I'm thinking I should make a battle log for exactly the same reasons. I like people on here and I miss the interaction but ugh, the challenges have been rough going lately and some of the stuff I'm working on right now doesn't lend itself well to a pass/fail mentality. And right now I am at this cat's level of NO WILL NOT DO about constraints/requirements: Doubles as cat tax. 37 minutes ago, fleaball said: I don't need my brain telling me "you missed a day and you're a horrible person and this one instance of not eating a vegetable negates everything you've ever accomplished in life!" This made me laugh because yep, so much that. I've at least gotten to the point where, when my brain does that, my reaction at least half the time is to mentally roll my eyes and think about how obviously stupid and self-sabotaging that is. Like, "Uh huh, sure thing brain, nothing I have ever done matters because I'm eating fries. Good one, makes sense, I'm so convinced." Next step: actually stopping it from happening. But hey, making progress. 37 minutes ago, fleaball said: That's all I got right now. Expect more random babbling in the future, I guess. It's not babbling, but I'm here for it anyway because I'm willing to settle for interesting and fun updates. 3 Quote Fitbit | Current Challenge | Old Challenges: 1 ~ 2 ~ 3 ~ 4 ~ 5 ~ 6 ~ 7 ~ 8 ~ 9 ~ 10 ~ 11 ~ 12 ~ 13 ~ 14 ~ 15 ~ 16 ~ 17 ~ 18 ~ 19 ~ 20 ~ 21 ~ 22 Forum avatar is custom art by the talented Veronica Guzzardi. Link to comment
Jarric Posted September 20, 2018 Report Share Posted September 20, 2018 Hey, glad to see you back battle logging! I look forward to plenty of random babbling 1 Quote Level 21 Wood Elf Ranger STR: 18 - CON: 22 - CHA: 11 - SAN: 19 - INT: 17 IAgreeWithTank™ "Shit is going down, but I am not." - iatetheyeti Don't say "I don't have enough time", say instead "that's not a priority right now" and see how that makes you feel. Current Challenge: Get going! External: Epic Quest - Instagram - Strava Spoiler Previous Challenges: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 Old Stuff: Battle Log - My Introduction - 2017 Road Map - 2018 Road Map - 2019 Road Map - 2021 Road Map - 2022 road map/wrap-up Link to comment
fleaball Posted September 20, 2018 Author Report Share Posted September 20, 2018 My brother literally stopped talking to me last night because I asked him if he was ever going to go to a doctor about the vomiting his guts out thing, which is getting exponentially worse. We'd been having a decent conversation and then he switched to one-word answers because how dare I show concern for him. (Also it's fucking gross to listen to and I'm going to go deaf from cranking up the volume on my headphones, but I didn't say any of that.) I'm so glad I live with mature, responsible adults. Just had a super fun conversation with my father about it - pretty sure my brother is losing hair now (evidenced by the fact that he is absolutely disgusting and there's always a ton of hair in the drain when he gets out of the shower), he's said he keeps poking holes in his belt because it's not tight enough, and the vomiting has progressed to a lot more grossness that I'm not going to talk about because thinking about it makes me want to puke. I do not do well with bodily fluids etc. But the super fun part is like, this is a 28-year-old person of sound mind who's perfectly capable of making his own decisions, so what can we do? We can't make appointments for him or force him to go to the doctor. We're both low-key worried when he gets up later than usual on a day off because neither of us wants to wade through his trash pit of a room to see if he's dead. It's especially ridiculous because my brother and I have had several conversations over the past year and a half about how my mother ostriched her way through cancer and never took care of herself and all that, and yet he doesn't see the irony. Or worse, he thinks he's somehow different/better because he's resigned himself to the fact that this will kill him while he does nothing about it, whereas my mother just assumed she'd live forever just because she wanted to. It's so fucking stupid. And I know if he does die in the near future, my father will become even more impossible to deal with because he'll start blaming himself and still blame my mother for shit and I will need to run away immediately. Although maybe then I could convince him to sell the fucking house and get a condo or something and never contact me again. >_> Aaaaanyway. That's longer than I intended it to be. On 9/18/2018 at 9:54 PM, Severine said: Yessss you posted! Win! I am pleased to have been involved in making good things happen. As I mentioned I'm thinking I should make a battle log for exactly the same reasons. I like people on here and I miss the interaction but ugh, the challenges have been rough going lately and some of the stuff I'm working on right now doesn't lend itself well to a pass/fail mentality. And right now I am at this cat's level of NO WILL NOT DO about constraints/requirements: Doubles as cat tax. Caaaaaaat. I can see my fat cat making that face, but I'm not sure I'd be able to wrestle him into a harness in the first place. I went looking earlier but you don't have a battle log yet. How dare. On 9/18/2018 at 9:54 PM, Severine said: This made me laugh because yep, so much that. I've at least gotten to the point where, when my brain does that, my reaction at least half the time is to mentally roll my eyes and think about how obviously stupid and self-sabotaging that is. Like, "Uh huh, sure thing brain, nothing I have ever done matters because I'm eating fries. Good one, makes sense, I'm so convinced." Next step: actually stopping it from happening. But hey, making progress. Yeah I definitely realize it's bullshit when it's happening. Which is good, but doesn't necessarily make me feel better either. Womp. On 9/18/2018 at 9:54 PM, Severine said: It's not babbling, but I'm here for it anyway because I'm willing to settle for interesting and fun updates. Challenge accepted. 10 hours ago, Jarric said: Hey, glad to see you back battle logging! I look forward to plenty of random babbling woot woot 3 2 Quote Level 69 Battle Kitten Battle Log | Current Challenge MyFitnessPal | Fitbit | Duolingo Ici je vis la vie que j'ai choisie Je suis partie pour reconstruire ma vie C'est dit, c'est ainsi Link to comment
fleaball Posted September 20, 2018 Author Report Share Posted September 20, 2018 Also, does anyone know where to get sterling silver earrings that aren't insanely expensive? I lost all my favorite earrings at the hospital when I had the plague and I'm super picky about earrings and have had a hard time finding others I liked. Got a set of silver studs from Kohl's last year that say they're for sensitive ears. Only got around to putting them in maybe 3 weeks ago - the silver has all flaked off and the metal is so cheap my ears turned green. :\ Took them all out last night and my ears still look kind of gross, boo. But it's impossible to find 7 earrings that coordinate. (4 holes in one ear, 3 + cartilage in the other, but I got a new one for the cartilage from the tattoo parlor down the street and I never change that out because I'm lazy.) 3 1 Quote Level 69 Battle Kitten Battle Log | Current Challenge MyFitnessPal | Fitbit | Duolingo Ici je vis la vie que j'ai choisie Je suis partie pour reconstruire ma vie C'est dit, c'est ainsi Link to comment
Tanktimus the Encourager Posted September 21, 2018 Report Share Posted September 21, 2018 2 hours ago, fleaball said: this is a 28-year-old person of sound mind That's debatable. You can't care for him. 2 Quote Current Challenge "By the Most-Righteous-and-Blessed Beard of Sir Tanktimus the Encourager!" - Jarl Rurik Harrgath Link to comment
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