Battle Kitten: Ascension

[Dagger]

1 hour ago, fleaball said:

HOLY FUCK I GOT THE INTERNSHIP?!??

Celebration! Confetti! Cake! What the heck! Let's have cake. It isn't a lie!

 

1 hour ago, fleaball said:

Spartan is a baby step right?

... Totally. Absolutely. Totally not lying. LOL.

[fleaball]

Last time I registered for a 5k well in advance it fucking backfired on me and I sprained my ankle. Time to try again? (Also anyone who's DC-adjacent feel free to join.)

[Sylvaa]

1 minute ago, fleaball said:

Last time I registered a 5k well in advance it fucking backfired on me and I sprained my ankle. Time to try again?

 

Do it! (I am a horrible example - you probably should never listen to me but caramel apple!)

[fleaball]

10 minutes ago, Sylvaa said:

 

Do it! (I am a horrible example - you probably should never listen to me but caramel apple!)

I've never had a caramel apple in my life. However, for the $35 fee you also get the cider, a hoodie, and it looks like you get a medal? Fuck yeah. I'm so mad though. I literally used to live right next to where this is held. Would have been so great to roll out of bed and go. Ah well.

 

Okay. Registering now. Whee.

[fleaball]

Are we allowed to curse in thread titles? I may or may not be planning my next challenge. 

[Owlet]

21 hours ago, fleaball said:

And the story just gets more ridiculous from there but tl;dr I was a lot sicker than I realized and just didn't pay attention. So now I think I'm overcompensating by worrying about everything.

Argh yeah fair enough. Sounds unpleasant as hell, but it's probably better to be over cautious than deny everything? Hopefully soon all these things will be resolved. I like that you're still signing up for shit anyway  But more importantly...

 

11 hours ago, fleaball said:

HOLY FUCK I GOT THE INTERNSHIP?!??

Congrats! Totally not surprised btw =P But that is fantastic. And awesome that you don't have to spend an hour looking for jobs every day haha. Definitely cause for celebration!

[Owlet]

6 hours ago, fleaball said:

Are we allowed to curse in thread titles? I may or may not be planning my next challenge. 

Damn you're organised/motivated! And yes you can swear, I've seen other thread titles.

[fleaball]

7 minutes ago, Owlet said:

Argh yeah fair enough. Sounds unpleasant as hell, but it's probably better to be over cautious than deny everything? Hopefully soon all these things will be resolved. I like that you're still signing up for shit anyway  But more importantly...

 

Congrats! Totally not surprised btw =P But that is fantastic. And awesome that you don't have to spend an hour looking for jobs every day haha. Definitely cause for celebration!

lol seriously if I can't manage a 5k by November I'm just going to give up. Not really. But it will be absolutely ridiculous if there is still something holding me back at that point. 

 

Thanks! I was going to do something productive with that hour today but I've been stuck in a Youtube black hole for hours and now it's well beyond bedtime. Oops. 

 

8 minutes ago, Owlet said:

Damn you're organised/motivated! And yes you can swear, I've seen other thread titles.

Oh good. I was pretty sure I've seen it before but didn't want it to be wishful thinking lmao. Don't worry, I barely got started. Mostly thinking about how I'm going to have to deal with classes + this internship (don't have the schedule yet but it will probably be at least 32 hours a week?) + my research assistantship + whatever else. Yikes. There needs to be a structure next challenge.

[Lara]

Congratulations on the internship!!!

Another race? You're making it sound great, with the medal and all.

[fleaball]

8 hours ago, zenLara said:

Congratulations on the internship!!!

Another race? You're making it sound great, with the medal and all.

I want a damn medal, man. One of my friends from college does a few 5ks & 10ks every year and has a wall of them. But pretty much every race I've looked at both at home and since I moved here just don't have them? You get your free beer or whatever at the end of the race but nothing to show you completed it. Fuck that. 

[Owlet]

[fleaball]

I'm binge-ing Cutthroat Kitchen. Why. I want to punch all of these people in the face jfc. 

 

I did YAYOG earlier and did not die. Yay. It felt vaguely easier than the last time I did it (6 weeks ago?!) and I'm not at all sore after the fact. Naturally I'm worried that means I didn't go as hard as I should have. >_> I'll probably keep with YAYOG until the Spartan is over and then switch to Elements afterwards. Might have to start doing yoga or something though because my core strength is terrrrrrrible. I held a plank for the wobbliest 30 seconds of my life. Not necessarily surprising but still kind of a shock to face. Shite. And my shoulder hurts, but it doesn't feel like the rotator cuff. It feels like the joint somehow. Ugh. 

 

Didn't have any takeout at all this week, which is a shock. I may have eaten too much crap regardless because I went crazy on sweet stuff when I went grocery shopping on Monday, but at least my credit card is happier. 

 

It's weird that getting the internship yesterday seems to have eliminated a lot of stress that I didn't realize I was carrying. I don't know that it will count toward the professional experience requirement for my degree (it probably will, but lbr I doubt everything) but even still, I've got a paid internship at a pretty big deal organization to spruce up my resume and I get to pause the job search for a bit. So yesterday and today have felt super chill and now I need to get cracking on adulting in other areas. I have no idea what the hours of the internship are going to be but it's probably going to be at least 32, I've got that research assistantship still, and then of course I'm taking either 8 or 9 credits. I have about a month to start sleeping like a normal person and make sure I've got nutrition on lock because I refuse to buy lunch every day for 10 weeks. Yikes. 

[Lara]

4 hours ago, fleaball said:

It's weird that getting the internship yesterday seems to have eliminated a lot of stress that I didn't realize I was carrying.

 

I'm glad to read this, but I have my doubts when I read your previous paragraphs. Because from the outside it looks like anxiety is ramping up. This may be an incorrect impression, though.

[fleaball]

10 hours ago, zenLara said:

 

I'm glad to read this, but I have my doubts when I read your previous paragraphs. Because from the outside it looks like anxiety is ramping up. This may be an incorrect impression, though.

Oh no, there's definitely still anxiety on all fronts and it's still making itself known. Maybe a better way to put it would be that I must have been more stressed than I realized about finding a job/internship, but now that particular stress has been eliminated? Or maybe I was just briefly buoyed by "oh look, something went right for once!"

[Lara]

3 hours ago, fleaball said:

Oh no, there's definitely still anxiety on all fronts and it's still making itself known. Maybe a better way to put it would be that I must have been more stressed than I realized about finding a job/internship, but now that particular stress has been eliminated? Or maybe I was just briefly buoyed by "oh look, something went right for once!"

Take care, sweetie.

[fleaball]

So remember yesterday when I said I wasn't feeling the workout? Yeah. Forget that. DOMS everywhere. It's enough to be annoying but not terrible, and I'm actually enjoying it because I'm a weirdo. Getting stitches removed from my leg tomorrow and will have to ask about doing leg workouts and running. I'd like to do the former tomorrow if it's allowed. 

 

Roommate finally came home today and looked annoyed at downstairs guy being a child but probably won't say anything. Damn.

 

Random thought of the day: if PCOS means I have higher levels of testosterone, does that mean I'll build muscle faster? I'm guessing it's not actually enough to make that kind of difference, but I groaned and rolled my eyes at myself because that's such a nerd thing to be thinking.

 

There were other things I was going to say. I don't know what they are. Have a gif. 

 

[RES]

10 hours ago, fleaball said:

if PCOS means I have higher levels of testosterone, does that mean I'll build muscle faster?

Not that I've noticed  

 

late again but congrats!! 

[athousandwords]

Late to the party as well, but CONGRATS on the internship!!  That is awesome!!  Glad to hear that it's been a load off your mind too; it sounds like it's going to be great for you.

 

Enjoy the DOMS  

[fleaball]

Me: lol anxiety is getting better yay

 

also me: *cant fall asleep until 5am for no reason whatsoever*

 

I was trying to quit coffee again. Haven't had it in a week. But after this doctor appointment I'm headed straight to Starbucks. 

[RES]

omg I wasn't last...

 

[fleaball]

It's a fuckin Monday y'all. 4 hours of sleep, super quick appointment to get two stitches out took an hour, no time for sbux as s result, super quick student health appointment to get a referral for my shoulder has taken 25 minutes so far and I'm still waiting. Both the nurse who took my vitals and the NP I saw cringed when I said "rotator cuff?" and "OCR in three weeks" so yay. Also the GYN finally sent my records over and despite the bitchy nurse insisting I'm fine, Doctor lady said "likely PCOS." Woo. So now I can make the appointment with the new guy.

[Owlet]

4 hours ago, fleaball said:

Also the GYN finally sent my records over and despite the bitchy nurse insisting I'm fine, Doctor lady said "likely PCOS." Woo. So now I can make the appointment with the new guy

yay! How did student health go? I feel your pain re waiting times, I feel like I spent most of last week in waiting rooms, these places always seem to be at least one appointment behind schedule. 

[fleaball]

1 hour ago, Owlet said:

yay! How did student health go? I feel your pain re waiting times, I feel like I spent most of last week in waiting rooms, these places always seem to be at least one appointment behind schedule. 

I literally went just to get the referral for the ortho. My health insurance is through the university and as such they require that you go to student health for everything and refuse to pay unless you've gone there first and gotten a referral to whatever specialist, unless the SHC is closed and you need to hit the ER or something. So basically I went in and said "hey, minorly fucked up my rotator cuff in June, that shoulder still hurts, I need to go back to the guy but I need a new referral because the new insurance plan started in August. Kthanks." And then waited about half an hour for the secretary lady to process the referral because she went off and did something else and then was apparently just standing around talking with coworkers for a bit because she thought she'd already given it to me? What kills me is that there were no other patients there so they couldn't possibly be behind. Ugh. 

 

Weirdly enough, the NP asked if I ever feel depressed. She was double-checking to make sure I'd gotten the referral processed for my therapist and didn't have any problems seeing her, but it was just a weird "why are you asking?" moment. 

 

Driving today actually wound up aggravating my shoulder. I usually drive with just my left hand on the wheel and that was making it more angry than usual. No idea what the deal is with that. 

 

My body is frustrating the hell out of me. Aside from being overweight since I was maybe 15, I've always been healthy. Cholesterol under 200, blood pressure on the low end of normal, no medications for anything. I didn't even need glasses until I hit college and started spending hours staring at my computer and books (and still only need them for those activities). Relatively few colds, never even had the flu that I can remember, just one really bad plague my last semester of undergrad when I was stressed beyond belief. No broken bones, just a sprained ankle playing basketball and a sprained wrist snowboarding. I barely even scar; at all the followups after my surgery a few years ago the doctor commented on how well I was healing, and when I had the (two, ugh) stitches removed from my leg today they said it was healing beautifully. And yet the last 9 fucking months of my life (12 if we want to include the bed bugs) have just been miserable. Random virus from hell, allergic reaction to medicine I've had before with no issues, spraining my ankle, all these other random injuries... what the fuck. I'm so tired of this shit. There's an underlying question of whether I could have avoided some or all of it if I'd been eating better and working out and all that, but given how fucking random it all is I don't even know. I'm just so done. 

 

I think I'm postponing the challenge I was going to do and need to come up with something else. As much as working out would help to reduce stress, it's probably not the best idea to start a new routine while also starting a 32-hour internship and classes (one of which terrifies me) and that research assistantship, all of which require turning my schedule on its head and adjusting in several other ways. Still pondering this. 

 

Also, I'm reading another why/how to go vegan book and they seriously suggested hitting a tanning bed for vitamin D over taking a supplement. I'm going to finish reading it mostly for entertainment value (and some of the recipes look good) but... really? Really?

[Owlet]

9 hours ago, fleaball said:

literally went just to get the referral for the ortho. My health insurance is through the university and as such they require that you go to student health for everything

ugh. Nightmare. Can't believe she forgot she hadn't given to you, useless! Grrrrr.

 

9 hours ago, fleaball said:

My body is frustrating the hell out of me

Wow yeah, I can see why. That is either really unlucky or... nah I think it's just really unlucky. Although maybe partly induced by high levels of stress? Obviously not the sprained ankle, but maybe some of the other stuff is cause your body is just fed up with charging around on high alert all the time. I actually have no idea, but I do think mental and physical states are more closely linked than is commonly acknowledged. Either way, please takecare of yourself, especially with internship etc coming up!

 

9 hours ago, fleaball said:

As much as working out would help to reduce stress, it's probably not the best idea to start a new routine while also starting a 32-hour internship and classes (one of which terrifies me) and that research assistantship, all of which require turning my schedule on its head and adjusting in several other ways.

Agree. I reckon do your best to eat well, get a good sleep routine etc, basically do the stuff that will  help you rather than stress you out even more. It may just be about surviving as best you can for a period. If you can pick a couple of basic, lifestyle kinda goals to work on, you could come out of it with some good solid habits. 

 

9 hours ago, fleaball said:

 

Also, I'm reading another why/how to go vegan book and they seriously suggested hitting a tanning bed for vitamin D over taking a supplement.

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA oh god. Or hell, just come to New Zealand and get fried to crisp under our ozone hole. 

[athousandwords]

4 hours ago, Owlet said:

Agree. I reckon do your best to eat well, get a good sleep routine etc, basically do the stuff that will  help you rather than stress you out even more. It may just be about surviving as best you can for a period. If you can pick a couple of basic, lifestyle kinda goals to work on, you could come out of it with some good solid habits. 

 

^^ this

 

13 hours ago, fleaball said:

Also, I'm reading another why/how to go vegan book and they seriously suggested hitting a tanning bed for vitamin D over taking a supplement. I'm going to finish reading it mostly for entertainment value (and some of the recipes look good) but... really? Really?

 

My sister and her husband are Vegan and love tanning.  Then they talk about how healthy their lifestyle is...