ReturnOfTheDad Posted March 10 Report Share Posted March 10 Great song, keep on fighting. ?? 1 Quote Link to comment
Jean Posted March 11 Author Report Share Posted March 11 7 hours ago, Scaly Freak said: Reminder that to fall back and regroup, and recharge, is an important part of continuing to fight. Alas! Falling back and regrouping requires the energy to prep for it and communicate about it, emotionally smart people who understand the situation and don't ask you to justify or fight your way there, financial stability or a combination of the above. That is not my situation right now. A fighting retreat or repositioning is all I've known for the last 8 years and all I am able to setup right now. 1 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted March 11 Author Report Share Posted March 11 Alright, I'm taking my previous rant back. 11 hours ago, Jean said: emotionally smart people who understand the situation and don't ask you to justify or fight your way there Looks like I've got that. I have to understand and acknowledge that I am in a caring environment and away from manipulative people right now. 3 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Scaly Freak Posted March 12 Report Share Posted March 12 9 hours ago, Jean said: I am in a caring environment and away from manipulative people right now This is awesome. Milk this for all you can get! 1 1 Quote The Great Reading Thread of 2024 “I've always believed that failure is non-existent. What is failure? You go to the end of the season, then you lose the Super Bowl. Is that failing? To most people, maybe. But when you're picking apart why you failed, and now you're learning from that, then is that really failing? I don't think so." - Kobe Bryant, 1978-2020. Rest in peace, great warrior. Personal Challenges, a.k.a.The Saga of Scalyfreak: Tutorial; Ch 1; Ch 2; Ch 3; Ch 4; Ch 5; Ch 6; Intermission; Intermission II; Ch 7; Ch 8; Ch 9; Ch 10; Ch 11; Ch 12 ; Ch 13; Ch 14; Ch 15; Ch 16; Ch 17; Intermission III; Ch 18; Ch 19; Ch 20; Ch 21; Ch 22; Ch 23; Ch 24; Ch 25; Intermission IV; Ch 26; Ch 27; Ch 28; Ch 29; Ch 30; Ch 31; Ch 32; Ch 33; Ch 34; Ch 35; Ch 36; Ch 37; Ch 38; Ch 39; Ch 40; Intermission V; Ch 41; Ch 42; Ch 43; Ch 44; Ch 45; Ch 46; Ch 47; Intermission VI; Ch 48; Ch 49; Ch 50; Ch 51; Intermission VI Link to comment
RES Posted March 18 Report Share Posted March 18 On 3/11/2024 at 12:26 PM, Jean said: On 3/11/2024 at 12:44 AM, Jean said: emotionally smart people who understand the situation and don't ask you to justify or fight your way there Looks like I've got that. I have to understand and acknowledge that I am in a caring environment and away from manipulative people right now. I see you friend ❤️ 1 Quote RES...and I want to live days worth dying for Current: RES: Life is not Always SET Spoiler Really Eclectic Scorpio, Level 87 |1|2|3|4|5|6|7|8|9|10|11|12|13|14|15|16|17|18|19|20|21|22|23|24|25|26|27|28|29|30|31|32|33|34|35|36|37|38|39|40|41|42|43|44|45|46|47|48|49|50|51|52|53|54|55|56|57|58|59|60|61|62|63|64|65|66|67|68|69|70|71|72|73|74|75|76|77|78|79|80|81|82|83|84|85|86|87|88|89|90|91|92| | My Character Page | Tracking Spreadsheet | My Blog | Growth happens when you care more about the well being of your future self than the comfort of your present self! "Pass on what you have learned. Strength, mastery. But weakness, folly, failure also. Yes, failure most of all. The greatest teacher, failure is." -Yoda Link to comment
Jean Posted March 30 Author Report Share Posted March 30 Quick update: I'm failing mightily at baroning. Work is draining most of my mental energy and internet browsing/video games are eating most of my free time. One thing I have noticed is that I have a mostly reactive mindset. While I can see the paths forward and anticipate the hits before they come, I consistently fail at mustering the strength and energy to proactively handle the situation and get myself in the mental space I want. Instead, I keep on tanking the hits, thinking under pressure and developing short term solutions. I may have become a master at tactics but to make this work, I need to focus and get better at strategy. I'm a first lieutenant without a general and I need to become that general or find one. Good enough is not good enough anymore if it leads to me stagnating in a situation that drains me. 3 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted April 1 Author Report Share Posted April 1 Not an update but this song has "yabadabadoo" in it and is worth mentioning just because of that: 3 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted June 21 Author Report Share Posted June 21 Life has a fun way to merrily go round: I was fired last year, quickly got an opportunity in a humane but with some lackings in management place (that was a huge step up from what I had known since then) and it now turns out that the same situation I had before (too many people able to give me directives and evaluate me with conflicting objectives and poor view of what the actual problems are) makes me "not efficient enough" so that we're getting to the breaking point... Point of focus for me is not reiterating the mistakes I've made before and keeping doing what I enjoy having as part of my behavior. This time, I intend to: prioritize my health, projects and being a good human being. If it breaks, it breaks ; keep on keeping on, which is one of my defining traits. While I don't feel bound to this work relationship, I am not giving up on it just yet. I'll focus on standing my ground, trying to make my view plain, underlying points of frictions and candidly draw plans toward project successes and following them ; documenting most everything. When the time comes for "the speech", I want to be the one with factual data that they can pile on. I tend to see work relationships like emotional ones: we do have differences and encounter hardship but we should be able to get through it if we both genuinely work in that direction and communicate about our divergences. Like emotional relationships, I'm not planning on staying in an abusing one either, just doing my genuinely best effort to make it work, be happy if it does work or walk away without regrets if it doesn't pan out. Edit: lack of/misguided leadership is a flaw I had identified right after being hired and the plan was to work there for a few years, build finances and experience and then launch my own study. I am a bit (ok, a lot) tired of having a mix of ill intending/inefficient people in management. 5 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Tobbe Posted June 21 Report Share Posted June 21 First of all, congratulations on the new job! I don't know what it's like in your field of work, but where I am the market is *brutal* right now with people sending out hundreds of applications and only hearing back from like 10 and then not actually getting any of the jobs at all. I speak to people who are getting desperate having been on a job hunt for over half a year! So, again, congrats on landing your new gig! > lack of/misguided leadership is a flaw > I am a bit (ok, a lot) tired of having a mix of ill intending/inefficient people in management. Word! That really resonates with me. I was in the exact same situation myself. And that was totally the reason I started my own business. I don't want any more bosses trying to tell me what to do! And it was the best decision ever! So I very much encourage you to do your own thing! If possible, try starting doing what you eventually want to be doing full time on nights and weekends, and once it has traction you quit your day job. 3 Quote Challenge 21 - Tobbe Goes Running in the Dark | Challenge 20 - Tobbe Gets Ready for CNF | Challenge 19 - Tobbe has Nutrition and Fitness Goals | Challenge 18 - Tobbe is like Jace | Challenge 17 - Tobbe Keeps a Journal | Challenge 16 - Tobbe Builds an E-commerce Site | Challenge 15 - Tobbe and the Journey | Challenge 14 - Tobbe Goes to Sleep | Challenge 13 - Tobbe Kills Zombies | PvP - DailyDare NerdFitness Edition | Challenge 12 - Tobbe tries not to do all the things | Challenge 11 - Tobbe Becomes a Yogi in South East Asia | Challenge 10 - Tobbe Becomes a Yogi | Challenge 9 - Tobbe Gets Productive | PVP - The Last Darebender | Challenge 8 - Tobbe's 100 days of food freedom (part 2) | Challenge 7 - Tobbe's 100 days of food freedom (part 1) | Challenge 6 - Tobbe becomes a Recovery Warrior | Challenge 5 - Tobbe fights the dinosaur | Challenge 4 - Tobbe catches up and pleases his wife | PVP - Rise above the pull-up bar | Challenge 3 - Tobbe eats like a ... | Mini challenge - Students gonna ranger | Challenge 2 - The Necessities | Challenge 1 - Let's get this challenge thing going | The Intuitive Eating Support Group | TODO 2019 PvP | Battle Log (>>) Link to comment
Jean Posted June 21 Author Report Share Posted June 21 2 hours ago, Tobbe said: I don't know what it's like in your field of work, but where I am the market is *brutal* right now The market for my skillset was very demand oriented last year and finding a job wasn't really difficult. I would say it is still demand driven, though a bit less so, but I'm being a bit more careful with that assessment as my employer is letting people go due to lack of work to have them do. My reading of the situation is that we have enough job but are poorly organized, which leads to a bad repartition of it and people getting let go while others are overworked. I may be wrong on that. 2 hours ago, Tobbe said: If possible, try starting doing what you eventually want to be doing full time on nights and weekends, and once it has traction you quit your day job. One of my problems is a lack of mental energy, which, incidentally, is pretty hard to explain to old fashion managers. I've focused on taking time for myself and not getting drawn into job to meet unrealistic deadlines lately but I still have very low energy on evenings and weekends to pursue my own ventures. Prioritizing workouts is part of the process to get me up and running again, it's getting better but I'm not yet there. 3 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
RES Posted June 22 Report Share Posted June 22 2 hours ago, Jean said: My reading of the situation is that we have enough job but are poorly organized, which leads to a bad repartition of it and people getting let go while others are overworked. I may be wrong on that. I had something similar in my full time job. It's getting better, mostly due to leadership being let go and new (better) leadership being brought in that addressed the issue. It's never good when the reward for doing a good job is more work, while those that are slacking are allowed to get away with it! Glad to see you around again. 1 Quote RES...and I want to live days worth dying for Current: RES: Life is not Always SET Spoiler Really Eclectic Scorpio, Level 87 |1|2|3|4|5|6|7|8|9|10|11|12|13|14|15|16|17|18|19|20|21|22|23|24|25|26|27|28|29|30|31|32|33|34|35|36|37|38|39|40|41|42|43|44|45|46|47|48|49|50|51|52|53|54|55|56|57|58|59|60|61|62|63|64|65|66|67|68|69|70|71|72|73|74|75|76|77|78|79|80|81|82|83|84|85|86|87|88|89|90|91|92| | My Character Page | Tracking Spreadsheet | My Blog | Growth happens when you care more about the well being of your future self than the comfort of your present self! "Pass on what you have learned. Strength, mastery. But weakness, folly, failure also. Yes, failure most of all. The greatest teacher, failure is." -Yoda Link to comment
Jean Posted June 22 Author Report Share Posted June 22 Thanks! I have a few focus points in order to achieve my goals of taking care of myself and being a good/attractive human being: * walk 1h/day under the sun: this helps me focus a lot and gets me some tan while I almost don't spend any time outside at all otherwise ; * work out regularly: I have a regular plan and an emergency workout that I can do anytime, anywhere, with no excuses. This should help ; * sleep at least 6h/night ; * eat enough. This one is lax, what it actually means is that if I fail to prep meals for the week and I'm hungry as a result of it, I must not try to spare money by not eating enough but instead buy whatever necessary to have a complete, healthy meal anyway. 1 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted June 22 Author Report Share Posted June 22 Alright, you know what? Let's open a new chapter and name this part of my life: Good things happen to attractive people. That's a big break with my previous focus that was on achieving long term results at the cost of the short term appearance of efficiency, which followed sort of a "good things happen to good people" logic. I can't do that anymore. Instead, what I'm going to do are the 4 bullet points listed in the post above, which are: walk 1h/day under the sun: this helps me focus a lot and gets me some tan while I almost don't spend any time outside at all otherwise ; work out regularly: I have a regular plan and an emergency workout that I can do anytime, anywhere, with no excuses. This should help ; sleep at least 6h/night ; eat enough. This one is lax, what it actually means is that if I fail to prep meals for the week and I'm hungry as a result of it, I must not try to spare money by not eating enough but instead buy whatever necessary to have a complete, healthy meal anyway. 5 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted June 22 Author Report Share Posted June 22 Summoning future me to help with my struggles. I want to be: a happy warrior, treating fights as routine facts of life, a life that I enjoy; a kind person, not afraid to be harsh but caring; a king at deflection: know what matters, know what does not, give the latter not even the slightiest bit of my energy or attention. I strive to shape my immediate environment as organized chaos: welcome the unplanned and unforeseen, give people and situations leeway to evolve when they choose and craft areas of stability where they matter. My fighting style is that of a tough, agile spellsword: I can go through any hardship with the Turtle form, where, shield in hand, life's blows slide on me and nothing stops me from doing tiny step after tiny step in an unstoppable march toward my purpose. I can dodge, redeploy, flank or ignore any situation by swiflty disappearing or teleporting away so that I can always direct my energy toward the things that matter and make a difference where it counts. I am independent and efficient, my persona is The Mercenary. 3 1 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted June 22 Author Report Share Posted June 22 Theme song for this part of my life will be: 2 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted June 23 Author Report Share Posted June 23 Smellin' the scent of battle and the familiar feeling of readiness. Another appropriate song for times like these: I'll be on the way toward victory until the day I give up, which ain't coming anytime soon. 1 2 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Mistr Posted June 24 Report Share Posted June 24 Good to see you here! I think you are smart to document all the things happening at work. It is frustrating to have poor management. Having documentation allows you to say "project manager A set a deadline of Tuesday for this project. I would be happy to work on your project now, if you can talk to project manager A about an extension of their deadline". Getting outside is great for both physical and mental health. I hope you have nice weather and places to go enjoy it. 1 Quote Level 80 Viking paladin My current challenge Battle log Link to comment
Jean Posted June 25 Author Report Share Posted June 25 Thanks! I'm preparing for asking for specific targets to be set, discussing them thoroughly and making clear and documented where I don't agree with them, do my best to stick to them or make clear that what I'm being asked conflicts with the targets that I have been given and work from there. I don't expect for it to work very well: there's too many people with conflicting views that have access to me, but at least I'll have given it my best shot and learned a lot in the process. I've been reminded of this piece of music today: 2 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted June 25 Author Report Share Posted June 25 Also, words of wisdom for today: things only let you down when you need them because you won't notice if they don't work while you're not trying to use them. 2 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted July 4 Author Report Share Posted July 4 Time to gear up and do battle. Battlesong: 3 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Mistr Posted July 10 Report Share Posted July 10 On 6/25/2024 at 2:38 PM, Jean said: Also, words of wisdom for today: things only let you down when you need them because you won't notice if they don't work while you're not trying to use them. This is just like you always find the missing item in the last place you look. How are things going? 1 Quote Level 80 Viking paladin My current challenge Battle log Link to comment
Jean Posted July 10 Author Report Share Posted July 10 10 minutes ago, Mistr said: How are things going? Pretty good. My employer is trying to cut my salary but I think it stems from a bad evaluation from their part so don't need to question myself too much. I'll just go forward, see what happens and trust I'm resilient, independent and skillful enough to go one whatever may happen. My main mistake is trying to please people, which never works, so I'm applying the only method that does work and focusing on myself. I trust good things will come out of it and I'm eager to see what tale I'll get to tell. 4 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Jean Posted August 25 Author Report Share Posted August 25 Alright, I'm finishing my current job on Wednesday. Things are looking like my next job would start November 4th. Goals are: 1) Survive until Wednesday's evening. 2) Start building good habits right away : * go to bed before 10 pm on Wednesday and the days after * get up by 8 am at the latest starting Thursday * Go shopping on Thursday, pile up yummy breakfast food * Have a healthy breakfast every morning starting Friday * Go out and exercise 1/day starting Thursday Goals by day: Monday: survive Tuesday: survive Wednesday: * survive * go to bed by 10pm Thursday: * get up by 8 am * go shopping for yummy breakfast food * go out and exercise * go to bed by 10pm Days onward: * get up by 8 am * have a delicious healthy breakfast * go out and exercise * go to bed by 10pm First, crawling forward. 3 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
Tobbe Posted August 25 Report Share Posted August 25 9 minutes ago, Jean said: * Go shopping on Thursday, pile up yummy breakfast food * Have a healthy breakfast every morning starting Friday What are your plans for healthy breakfasts? Quote Challenge 21 - Tobbe Goes Running in the Dark | Challenge 20 - Tobbe Gets Ready for CNF | Challenge 19 - Tobbe has Nutrition and Fitness Goals | Challenge 18 - Tobbe is like Jace | Challenge 17 - Tobbe Keeps a Journal | Challenge 16 - Tobbe Builds an E-commerce Site | Challenge 15 - Tobbe and the Journey | Challenge 14 - Tobbe Goes to Sleep | Challenge 13 - Tobbe Kills Zombies | PvP - DailyDare NerdFitness Edition | Challenge 12 - Tobbe tries not to do all the things | Challenge 11 - Tobbe Becomes a Yogi in South East Asia | Challenge 10 - Tobbe Becomes a Yogi | Challenge 9 - Tobbe Gets Productive | PVP - The Last Darebender | Challenge 8 - Tobbe's 100 days of food freedom (part 2) | Challenge 7 - Tobbe's 100 days of food freedom (part 1) | Challenge 6 - Tobbe becomes a Recovery Warrior | Challenge 5 - Tobbe fights the dinosaur | Challenge 4 - Tobbe catches up and pleases his wife | PVP - Rise above the pull-up bar | Challenge 3 - Tobbe eats like a ... | Mini challenge - Students gonna ranger | Challenge 2 - The Necessities | Challenge 1 - Let's get this challenge thing going | The Intuitive Eating Support Group | TODO 2019 PvP | Battle Log (>>) Link to comment
Jean Posted August 25 Author Report Share Posted August 25 Planning starts on Thursday. I practice a strict no mental pressure whatsoever policy until then. 3 Quote Legally bound to hug people in need. Living life as a Druid is about walking with the beasts. It's about being scared, looking your fears in the eyes and going on anyway. Dread doesn't go away, you just learn to know it. It's still a beast, it still has fangs, but you walk among it. Link to comment
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